Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Farmer of memories

Did I ever tell you that Boy C is named after his paternal great grandfather?  Here's a paper I wrote 13 years ago about him for a college English class:

Ever since I can remember, my grandfather has collected antiques.  For twenty years, on every visit to his farm, I would play with the antique toys, look at license plates from all fifty states, see a wall with over 20,000 locks and keys, and I would play in his fully restored barbershop.
About once a year, I would get to visit the rural Kansas farm where my father and grandfather grew up.  The land is almost totally unchanged for eighty years, and I have grown to know how to navigate my way on the unmarked dusty washboard roads leading to my grandparent’s farm.  The main driveway is shaded by ancient cedar trees, which were planted by my great-great grandfather when he first built the homestead.  These trees cloak the main house and barns until you just about reach the house.  Often, a dog or two would come greet you with a canine grin and some hearty barking.  And of course, there would be the familiar two relatives always happy to see their grandchildren.
Every visit, Grandpa would want to show me what was new in his collection.  And even if it wasn’t new, he still took pride in showing it off.  A tour through the Woolf ‘museums’ is a nostalgic overload.  Barns that once housed horses and cows now house shelves and cabinets; all full.  Children of the Great Depression era will delight in the Gem-Roller organ, which is still ready to crank out its scratchy, tinny version of ‘Life is Just a Bowl of Cherries”.  People of different ages will remember toting metal lunch boxes with pictures of the Lone Ranger or Strawberry Shortcake to school.  And maybe, many of you would laugh at the old telephone switchboard in this age of wireless phones and instant communication.  My grandfather is a dedicated collector.  He has a medical examining table and instruments in one of the barns.  And he will be quick to tell you that he was born on that very table eighty-six years ago. 
My grandfather never talked much to me about, well, anything.  He is the strong silent type.  For an English project, we had to conduct a life interview.  I chose my grandfather, because he is one of the most interesting people I know.  This was the first opportunity I had to talk with him on a very personal level. 
The information I learned from him in that one-hour interview was far more copious that all that I had learned in my whole twenty years.  He told me almost everything about his life; how he grew up, how he met my grandmother, and most importantly, how he started collecting. 
“So, how did you meet Grandma?”
“Well, I saw her in church.  And she was with another fellow then.  I thought to myself, ‘she shouldn’t be with him, she should be with me.’”  My grandfather chuckled his low, scratchy laugh. 

I never knew why Grandpa had to walk with a cane, or why he didn’t farm anymore.  All I knew was that he’d had an accident long ago.  My father told me the story later when Grandpa wouldn’t.  My grandfather used to drive a car with a crank on the front.  While he was driving, a tree fell in front of the car, catching the hook, and catapulting the car on top of him.  The accident broke his back.  Although he was able to walk again, he would never be able to farm the land like he wanted to.  As a child of the Depression, he told me that, “I couldn’t just sit around and do nothing.  I had to work.”  Work was all he knew.  Although many people in today’s day would love to be able to sit around and do nothing, my grandfather could not.  The only way to make sure you had food was to work.  So he bought a piece of furniture and fixed it up and sold it.  And so his collection grew, piece by piece.  Any antique farm tool up for auction, my grandfather probably bought it, and if he didn’t buy it; he probably already had one.   He dedicated most of his life to working with, collecting, and restoring antiques.  They were what kept him going.  And now, in his old age, he can tell you most anything about Kansas farming history.  Even better than that, he can show you.     

Friday, October 10, 2014

At least they wore helmets.

A few years ago, I set about trying to rebuild my young adult library of books. I've always been a bookworm and a habitual book rereader.

Around the time I became obsessed with horses, I started to devour books on horses, horse care, and such.  I read with such ferocity that I truly thought we could put a horse in our small 1/4 acre lot and it would cut down on the time my dad had to now the lawn (a strikingly similar idea in Me and Katie (The Pest)). 

A common theme in all these books was that a teenage or preteen girl for some reason or another comes to be the sole owner/trainer of a wild or untrained horse and in a matter of months the horse is perfectly broke, quiet, and jumping. 

At the time, I thought this was reality. Now, having ACTUALLY OWNED A HORSE (and become a parent),  I'm all, "What the hell?" Who let these girls all alone with a wild horse with no supervision?

But yet, I still reread them and consider them an integral part of my childhood and obsession and love for horses.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Artsy-not-so-fartsy

I've never considered myself an artist.  I like to doodle, make stuff out of play-doh, shoot a few artsy looking pictures, and put paint to canvas on occasion.  I mostly play around and I'm never serious about my creations.  I have fun, I love what I make and I enjoy displaying my creations in my home.

I'm not happy if I'm not making something.  I just refinished a dining room table and I've just set it up and I'm insanely in love with it.  It's an ever so slight mint green that matches a hutch I refinished this summer which matches my very first piece of honest to goodness "I'm an adult" furniture purchase of a wine rack.

There's something about that first piece of furniture you buy as an adult.  It's a badge of honor. A, "LOOK AT ME, I DIDN'T HAVE TO PUT THIS TOGETHER WITH AN ALLEN WRENCH" status symbol.  Since I've now refinished two pieces to match it, it's safe to say the mint green dining room suite is here to stay.

But I'm getting the niggling in the back of the creative part of my mind. You know the feeling. The itchy, buzzy, annoying spark that threatens to engulf you if you don't put it to use.  I've got my sights on our bedroom walls.  Don't tell my husband, but I'd like to repaint the bedroom a warm taupe-y brown.  It's currently an ash grey and I think it's just time I repainted over it.  Like everything in Papa B's life when I moved in, I want to erase the poor decorating choices of a single man in his twenties. He joked that he's not sure he recognizes the house anymore. I told him I'm just making it harder for his next wife to come in and not feel my presence and hand on everything.

Friday, September 12, 2014

Forty-fives

I was playing some music on my iTunes the other day and the song, 'Reach Out I'll Be There' came on by the Four Tops.  In its amazing digital quality, I can't help but remember the only way I used to hear the song - on 45 from my parent's Seeburg Juke Box in out basement.  It sounds so foreign, yet so familiar.  I know the song, but it doesn't sound the same without the few seconds of needle noise and scratches before hearing the flute music.  It's funny, this is the only song I have this association with.  Maybe because the song is so soft at the beginning.  It's funny how I miss the scratchy version.

When I listen to the satellite radio on 50's on 5 or 60's on 6, sometimes I feel like I'm the only 34 year old in the world who can name the title and artist of most of what's on there. We only listened to oldies in the car growing up, so I think I have a pretty good mental library of songs from that era. It makes me feel so old and yet so young at the same time.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Tons of fun

I'm able to post about this now.  It took me a while to come to terms with it, but it was a tough decision for everyone involved.

This is Tessie.  


I got her and her littermates as kittens from a vineyard worker in 2002.  He was going to just turn them loose in the barn to control mice.  I took them from him before he could to get them neutered.  Well, they never left my house.  My folks have the boy of the litter, and I took the girls. 

She had been having behavior problems and peeing on things, so we made the decision to put her down due to kidney problems.  

Papa B buried her for me because I couldn't do it.  To be fair, I buried his cat for him.  

One of the items she peed on was a birthday present for one of Girl C's friends.  Rather than wash it and give it to her anyways, I went to the fabric store to buy more fabric and start the project all over again.  As I was making the first one, I realized that one yard of fabric was not enough, so I doubled it for the second attempt.  The lady cutting my fabric asked me what I was making, and I said a princess cape, but this was the second go at it.  She asked what happened to the first one and I told her the cat had peed on it.  She asked, "Is the cat still alive?"  And, completely deadpan, I said, "No, actually, she's not."  Her face was absolutely horrified, and she sputtered something, trying to get her foot out of her mouth. I smiled, and said that we had to put her down due to kidney problems and that was why she was peeing on things.  

So, on the upside, we're now a cat-fee house and I don't anticipate us having a cat again for a long, long time.  If ever.  

Thursday, August 7, 2014

How we're built

Can I take a moment of your time to complain about something?  And, to you, it may seem trivial, and a bit 'first world problem-ish', but I really hate when people remark to me, "Oh, you're so skinny!".  It's always said in somewhat of an accusatory manner.  I never, ever, brag or complain about my body shape or size.  Thankfully, I have learned that I am the shape that I am through genetics and sheer luck.  I eat what I want and when I want - although sometimes it seems I eat like a horse with the metabolism of a hummingbird.

Can I be proud of my body?  Even though I did nothing to achieve it?  Can I be proud of that body even though it's skinny? I have a flat stomach, with a bit of pooch that comes from bearing two beautiful babies.  I love that it has been resilient and amazing and went right back to what it was without any prodding from me. Is it right or wrong for me to be proud of what I have even though some women spend hours upon hours trying to achieve what came naturally to me?

Sometimes, I feel skinny-shamed.  That other people are telling me "I'm SO skinny" to make themselves feel better about their own bodies and choices?  Are they resentful because I drew a lucky hand?  Because I have literally sat on my ass and ate a tub of frosting in the course of a week and it has affected me in no way, shape or form?  I never, ever comment on someone's body, positive or negative.  If someone I know is working to lose weight, I support their decision and comment on their hard work and dedication, not the results.  I feel like the, "You're so skinny!" comment should be met with a, "You're so fat!" or, "You're so pale!"  It's just a comment on my physical appearance that has nothing to do with my character or personality. I just wish we would stop trying to build ourselves up by putting another person down.  It doesn't do anything.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Rage Against the (washing) Machine

I love my front loader.  I really do.  It uses less water and detergent, and in a frugal household, that's a plus.  It spins faster than a conventional top loader and therefore the clothes coming out of the washer take less time to dry.  I can't tell you the last time I used my dryer.  I'm considering selling it.  Drying is usually done outside in the sunshine when weather and temperature permits, and inside on racks next to the woodstove when it's cold out.

For a while now, I've been noticing an odor coming from the washer.  But only when the machine is on a spin cycle.  After a load finishes, I leave it open to prevent it from getting musty.  Sometimes, I'll even go so far as to put a little fan in there to circulate some more air.  But I still noticed the odor.  People who gave me advice about this problem were convinced it was because I shut the door and it was getting smelly from there.  I disagreed and ran the washer on a clean cycle.  Still stunk.  So, after some traipsing around the internet and various washing machine forums (yes, that's a thing!), my next step was to clean the drain hose.


HOLY SHIT.


Literally, shit.  After 3+ years of cloth diapering, the sludge that had accumulated in that thing was revolting.  I had a giant pipe cleaner-like device and I shoved that bad boy into one of the business ends of the drain hose.  And I pulled out the grimiest, brownest, foulest goo that almost made me toss my cookies.  So, lather, rinse, repeat on the other end and swish with a bit of bleach water and ta-da!  No more smell!

I replaced the hose and have yet to run a new load to see if that was the problem, but I'm fairly confident that I solved the mystery of the smelly washer.

And next time, I'm just buying a new drain hose.